回來之前，給AYUSA當地的主任 (Regional Director)寫了一封信，坦承一開始在第一個接待家庭自己所犯的錯誤，並且感謝當時RD介入處理時的協助，還有後續第二個接待家庭給予的溫暖與照顧。
以下是她給RD的信，以及RD Debbie Rockelmann 的回信。
This year has gone incredibly fast. I could not believe that last summer I was waiting for a host family anxiously, so I could come to America to pursue my dream-- to be an exchange student. Nine months have passed, I grew up a lot. I went from a young and immature girl, to a woman, who is now able to deal with more situations.
When I first got here, I had a host family that treated me like I was a VIP guest. At first, my host mom always worried about if I am comfortable. For instance, they bought me Chinese food all the time in case I cannot adapt American food. She even brought me a glass of water to my room every night, gave me a goodnight-hug and then went to bed.
I messed everything up. Because I used my computer to contact a guy named Kevin, and did not tell my host parents. They think I lied to them. During the first couple weeks, my representative visited me almost once a week and I cried all the time. I did not know how to express my feeling in English when I feel scared. And then they wanted me to stop contact Kevin and made more regulations of computer using, which made me, a childish girl could not live without internet even a day, very upset. The biggest mistake I made was I tried to stay contact with him secretly, and being sneaky to cover it. Because I already signed a paper saying that I will not contact Kevin anymore. I cheated them not only once, that was the main reason they did not trust me since then. After several incidents happened, the way they treated me was far from a family member. I did not blame them because it was my fault, I started everything. Although I still tried to stay in that family and did my best to talk to my host mom, nothing changed. All the pressure I had to face made me feel unhappy and had nobody to talk to. Stress and guilty feeling that gone through every day almost drove me crazy. I even got written up by the mistake I made, it was terrible and so hard to be honest to myself that I was not a good girl. Luckily, I suddenly realized that I still had a choice, to move out and started a new life. With fear, I asked the host dad that I wanted to leave and said sorry to them. They were mad for sure, because they have been trying to get an exchange student for a long time and especially their two daughters love me. It was a pretty bad day that I moved out, nobody was expecting that and none was prepared. I can still remember the word Debbie wanted me to look up, integrity. That means, you have to be an honest person and follow the right thing that you are suppose to follow. Be trustable.
Everything in America starts with trust. You want people to trust you, make yourself a person that are able to trust people and let others know that you are a person with integrity. I learnt the lesson from the mistake I made, and luckily, I had a host family within three days and it is five minutes away from my ex-host family.
This year was not the best for me, but no doubt it was a year that I grew up the most. I appreciated Debbie, the person who taught me the most. She put lots of effort on placing me and dealt with my host family. It was not an easy job, but she did it! After all things happened, I realized that she helped me the most and she will always be everybody's strong guidance. Also Harry and Nancy Peterson, they were the ones that love me no matter what and gave me big hugs when I needed. They found me a wonderful host family, which made my year way better than the first month. I love my host family, they are the best host dad and host mom in the world! They treated me like their own daughter and I think I got spoiled. (aha) I am glad they want to keep hosting my sister-Claire; this really means a lot to me. They showed their love and careens to me, and of course I am honest with them. I am no longer the person I was, new Irene was born!
Thank you for this lovely letter. I am very proud of you!
I am happy that you took such an awful beginning and learned from it and ended up having such a wonderful year.
I will be happy to write a recommendation letter to Charles